Project three highlights my journey of reconstructing my identity after brain surgery. I transitioned from a dependent role but felt intimidated by the responsibilities of adulthood. As I began to understand who I was as a "new person," my anxiety and self-doubt increased. However, I discovered that I doubted myself less when I recognized my strengths and capabilities.
Reconstructing Identity This piece demonstrates how I rebuilt my identity after surgery. I attempted to piece everything back together, but not every part fit perfectly. It’s like trying to assemble a puzzle without sight or the necessary tools. That’s why some pieces are flipped upside down, and why the eyes are covered.
Frozen This piece expresses the heightened anxiety I felt after surgery. The curly hair symbolizes this anxiety, while the wide eyes convey a sense of shock. The black-and-white color scheme reflects my polarized thoughts, which contributed to my feelings of anxiety.
Death to Dependence This piece reflects my experience of overcoming dependence. I have my eyes covered in gold, reminiscent of ancient practices where coins were placed over the eyes of the deceased to keep them shut. I have also placed a coin on my throat that reads, "Your past does not determine who you are; your past prepares you for who you are to become."
Self-Doubt This sculpture is made of bronze to symbolize my improving self-esteem, yet I still grappled with self-doubt. The downward gaze of the eyes represents that uncertainty. As I began to trust in my ability to express myself, my self-doubt diminished. This transformation is illustrated by the keys at the base of the sculpture and on the throat. My key to confidence was learning to express myself assertively and to stop doubting my abilities.
Oh, The Places You'll Go! This piece represents my curiosity in exploring independence. I have my hands open at the sides of the neck to convey a willing stance. I placed a map around the head along with door knobs, suggesting that if I am open to possibilities, doors will open for me. The coins at the base feature inspirational quotes.
Emerging This piece depicts a winter scene, capturing one of winter's first snows. I am beginning to emerge. I doubt myself less and am starting to believe in myself. I have hope for my future.